2000年的初春。
一扇窗口在我面前打开了。
在一个叫opendiary.com的网站，我用英文写一些日记。
有一天，很意外地收到了一封寄自美国的mail.
从此，开始了一段往返数十次的通信。
后来由于我的懒惰，渐渐和那个朋友断了联系。
真希望如果有机会，还能再和他通mail.
1.
不速之信
lyh1978,
If you don't mind I am calling you this because I don't know your name. I
found the article you posted online while I was randomly reading some articles. After I read your essay, suddenly I felt the hardship for you.
The everything that you have been gone through started composing into motion picture in my mind. I could not get over it. Although I know this probably happens everywhere in China, I still felt pain for you. Then, I decided to write to you. Hopefully, I can reduce some pain for you by making a friend, who will support you all the way. Today, I am just going to write these all, and hope I will talk you more. Don't be depressed, you have friends everywhere.
Charles
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Alex,I was so delighted to receive your email. Tell you the truth, I was notexpecting at all that you would write me back. As you requested, I haveattached a copy of your article, but I don't know if you could read it due to the poor Chinese software that I have. Anyway. So, where are you now?
Oh, I have to say that your English is incredible. Are you still in school or working? I hope you don't mind my direct approach because I don't know you and want to getting know you. But let me start introducing myself first. My name is Charles Dong as you can see from my email address. I am
21, currently, attending college and working full-time. And I also teach part-time Chinese Traditional Folk Dance. I love dancing. Anyway, I hopeyour life is much easier now and of course better. Once more, keep in touch.
Charles
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我的第二封回信
Some words about me.A year older than u, i am now a student at a top university in Shanghai.thin, kind-hearted, always smiling, self-confident, sometimes lonesome.I have forgottn when i wrote the article u mentioned in your mail but i am sure then i did't came out, or i wouldn't be so unhappy.Now things r much better, 'cause i have come out, in the narrow
>sense.i mean , i have stopped preventing myself from meeting others who have the same sexual orientation.Of course i haven't come out, if the word means declaring my homosexualityin public.Now i have accepted my orientation,and i feel i enjoy being a ***(you know what).
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他的第三封信
Alex,
I'm sorry that I forgot to send the attachment the other day, but hopefully you would have received it by now. Wow, you are attending a top university in Shanghai. I really admire you because you know how competitive it is in China. May I know the name of it? I have a friend who currently studying
at Tong Ji Univeristy. Few words about me too. I was born in Zhoushan, Zhejiang. My father was born in Shanghai. I still have few relatives in Shanghai. I used to go to Shanghai very summer and sometimes during the Chinese New Year. I emigrated to US four years ago. Last month, I just
finished my second year in college and have two more years to go. My major is Business Administration concentrating on Accountancy. If I stick with this major, hopefully, I will get my MBA within four years. Right now, I also have a full-time job as an Administrative Aide. I like my job because
I am good at. I also teach Chinese Traditional Folk Dance part-time on Saturdays. I started dancing when I was six. Dance is always part of my life. Anyway, I feel really happy for you now that you finally have accepted you as yourself. This is a most crucial and the hardest step.
Meeting other friends is also very important. Oh, I just went back to China to visit my sisiter, relatives and friends during the summer of 98.
And I am planning now to visit them again next summer. I know the finals are coming up. Study hard and good luck. I wish to hear from you more.
Charles
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我的第三封信
charles,
Sorry for delaying wrting back to u.These days i am very busy and couldn'tfind any time to going on the internet.
i read that article last time.it reminded me of a time when i was deeply confused by my sex orientation.it was written in last november.after four years of self-tormenting, i had at last come to accept myself(i discovered my unusual sexorientation at 17).but i still couldn't accept those who have the same orientation with mine.i could only fall in love with heterosexuals(a little strange, right?).two months later, i met alex.
and everything changed. i fell in love with alex.i was, and am crazy for him. for the first time, i found that i can also fall in love with a "queer",or "faggot"(though i myself is one).he changed my life.i kept diaries at www.opendiar
y.com under the name alex0007, and i invited u to read my story.
C U!
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他又来信了
Alex,
I read your diaries twice and started to know you more. I felt the effectsthat Alex has caused on you, even you named yourself Alex after meeting him.
Life is not always fair, you know that. Some people meant to stay, someare not. After I read your diaries, I sensed your commitment to helpothers. I think it is time for people to realize their sexual rights. As afriend, I am happy that you are meeting others.
However, one littlecaution, protect yourself not only emotionally, but also physically.
Yesterday, I went to see New York City Gay Parade 2000. As you probablyheard before, New York City Gay Parade is the biggest one in the world. It was really wild. Hilliary Clinton, was there. Although the purpose of her presence was probably merely trying to get more votes, I still thought that was good enough. Certainly, I did not see any republican candidates for NewYork Senator Campaign. I even saw some colleagues of mine.
They were even performing in the parade, were they brave?! By the way, the word fag is sort of a negative word in American English.
Last time, you mentioned that you are attending college now. May I know the name? By the way, where are you from?
Charles
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